80.81 miles
6:43.10 hrs
33 mph Max
12.0 mph Avg
Today started out great with the Ring family, in the house I slept beside the previous night, offering me a shower and food in the morning for my trip. They are a married couple who have a summer house right on lake Erie.
After a nice shower, some fruit, granola and a banana I headed down the coast. Within five minutes of my departure it started to rain. I threw on my rain coat and kept peddling. Of course it was also cold and this did not help. My left knee started hurting about 10 miles into the trip and I found myself keeping as much weight off it at all times. Every time I would stop to check the map my knee felt better instantly but when I got back on the bike the pain was increased 25% over the previous pain.
After about 40 miles of biking I stopped at a convenience store and spent a little time getting warm. As the rain slowed down I threw on my rain pants and coat and continued to peddle. I don't know if it was the extra heat that the insulated pants gave or maybe some increased pressure on the knee but my knee pain went away! I went the rest of the day without pains!
The weather was a little funny for the rest of the day. Half the sky was clear blue (to my north) and the other half was dark and rainy. The sun never came out for more than a couple minutes at a time but when it did it felt so good!
As dusk approached I decided that I would peddle until I hit 80 miles and then start looking for a place to stay. I fortunately ran into an older gentleman in his yard and he offered up some grass for me to place my tent on. His wife cooked me some pork chops and I enjoyed the best tomatoes that I have ever tasted fresh from her garden! (I don't like tomatoes, but these were good!)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Day 13 - Tuesday August 25th
43.39 miles
3:44.36 hrs
25 mph Max
11.5 mph Avg
This morning I spent my time getting up for I knew that it was going to be a rest day and I would only go about 40 miles or so. I went down to a cheap all you can eat buffet and loaded up on food. The food was not all that great but I got plenty of it!
When I got back to the Double Tree I put on my bathing suit and headed down to the pool. I sat in the hot tub for about 20 min and then went into the dry sauna. The sauna may not have been the best idea because it may have dehydrated me but it felt great when I was in there. Of course, when I got back up to my room it was almost time to check out and I still had to pack everything up and I still had wet clothes from the previous nights bathtub laundry extravaganza! (It was really not that fun but I like to stay positive!)
As I hit the road at about 2pm, after stopping at the travelers information center for a free map that is HUGE, my knees were in near instant pain. The next 3:44 hours of riding were miserable. It was sunny, which was nice, but it was also very windy and the pain never stopped.
At the end of the day I stopped at a long beach and talked to a few people about my trip. I inquired about camping on the beach and everyone thought that it would be ok. I eventually decided against it and decided to ride towards the next camp ground (3 miles away).
The camp ground wanted $30 for the night and I would have nothing of it. I said no thanks and rode towards the next camp ground, this time looking for some people to talk to who may offer up a spot in their yard. I approached two people in a driveway, one an elder man on a bike and the other a mid age woman. I inquired about a camp ground near by that was not $30 a night or if they knew of any land where I could pitch a tent for cheap. The older gentleman, Stan, informed me that he just cut his grass and offered for me to stay in his yard for the night.
We rode side by side down the street at a pace of about 4 mph, it reminded me of one of those postcards with a father and son doing something special together. As we chatted, I talked about my trip and when I proceeded to tell him I was doing the trip for cancer research Stan stated, " I don't think much of cancer research." This threw me off guard... what do you mean you don't think much of cancer research???!!! I could tell at this moment that this conversation was going to be awkward. I did not think that it would become more awkward until I continued to talk about the trip and he interrupted me stating, "Wait, your American?" His demeanor totally changed at that point and I couldn't believe it. I then proceeded to wonder if this was a common feeling that Canadians had for Americans.
As we pulled into his house. The back yard was full of mosquitoes but I was not going to let that stop me from have a good nights sleep. As I inquired about jumping in the lake, something clicked in Stan's head and he told me that if I wanted I could go and camp out between the two houses across the street (he owned the 30'x6' strip of land between the two houses, marked off by some stakes in the ground). This spot was perfect for it would bring me closer to the water, allow a great view of the sunset and there was a breeze that kept the mosquitoes away!
The one worry in my mind was what the neighbors would say when they saw my tent on the side of their house...
3:44.36 hrs
25 mph Max
11.5 mph Avg
This morning I spent my time getting up for I knew that it was going to be a rest day and I would only go about 40 miles or so. I went down to a cheap all you can eat buffet and loaded up on food. The food was not all that great but I got plenty of it!
When I got back to the Double Tree I put on my bathing suit and headed down to the pool. I sat in the hot tub for about 20 min and then went into the dry sauna. The sauna may not have been the best idea because it may have dehydrated me but it felt great when I was in there. Of course, when I got back up to my room it was almost time to check out and I still had to pack everything up and I still had wet clothes from the previous nights bathtub laundry extravaganza! (It was really not that fun but I like to stay positive!)
As I hit the road at about 2pm, after stopping at the travelers information center for a free map that is HUGE, my knees were in near instant pain. The next 3:44 hours of riding were miserable. It was sunny, which was nice, but it was also very windy and the pain never stopped.
At the end of the day I stopped at a long beach and talked to a few people about my trip. I inquired about camping on the beach and everyone thought that it would be ok. I eventually decided against it and decided to ride towards the next camp ground (3 miles away).
The camp ground wanted $30 for the night and I would have nothing of it. I said no thanks and rode towards the next camp ground, this time looking for some people to talk to who may offer up a spot in their yard. I approached two people in a driveway, one an elder man on a bike and the other a mid age woman. I inquired about a camp ground near by that was not $30 a night or if they knew of any land where I could pitch a tent for cheap. The older gentleman, Stan, informed me that he just cut his grass and offered for me to stay in his yard for the night.
We rode side by side down the street at a pace of about 4 mph, it reminded me of one of those postcards with a father and son doing something special together. As we chatted, I talked about my trip and when I proceeded to tell him I was doing the trip for cancer research Stan stated, " I don't think much of cancer research." This threw me off guard... what do you mean you don't think much of cancer research???!!! I could tell at this moment that this conversation was going to be awkward. I did not think that it would become more awkward until I continued to talk about the trip and he interrupted me stating, "Wait, your American?" His demeanor totally changed at that point and I couldn't believe it. I then proceeded to wonder if this was a common feeling that Canadians had for Americans.
As we pulled into his house. The back yard was full of mosquitoes but I was not going to let that stop me from have a good nights sleep. As I inquired about jumping in the lake, something clicked in Stan's head and he told me that if I wanted I could go and camp out between the two houses across the street (he owned the 30'x6' strip of land between the two houses, marked off by some stakes in the ground). This spot was perfect for it would bring me closer to the water, allow a great view of the sunset and there was a breeze that kept the mosquitoes away!
The one worry in my mind was what the neighbors would say when they saw my tent on the side of their house...
Day 12 - Monday August 24th
77.17 miles
6:14.27 hrs
21.4 mph Max
12.2 mph Avg
Niagara Falls baby! The ride into Niagara was beautiful. I met a guy on the road, Mike Bundy, who gave me $16 for my trip, it was my first sponsorship! Thanks Mike!
I stopped at a bunch of fruit stands along the road, talking to people and filling up on some great, cheap, fruit! Fruit has become a main source of nutrition for me as it has made itself very prevalent along my route. The problem is that you need to consume a lot to fill up, but it makes a great mid-ride snack.
When I got to the US side of Niagara, the town looked like it was going into the shitter! There were many signs up for "Opening Soon" and a lot of closed doors. I did not feel comfortable biking through the city and the road conditions were brutal. I am very surprised that I did not get a flat.
As I crossed the boarder into Canada things turned very upscale and beautiful. I took many pictures of the falls and the surrounding area. I don't know when I will get to post these... probably when I make it to Hudson, WI, come the second week of September. I ended up deciding to cash in my HHonors Rewards points for a free hotel room at the Double Tree on the strip. The reservation used all 30,000 points and I was a little upset about this but the room was amazing! Two queen beds.. a large shower... two cookies... a bunch of coffee and a great location with a view! I spent the night out on the town walking up and down the main streets people watching and exploring the splendor of Niagara Falls. Overall it was a very good day! I was so relieved to be out of NY State and in another country.
6:14.27 hrs
21.4 mph Max
12.2 mph Avg
Niagara Falls baby! The ride into Niagara was beautiful. I met a guy on the road, Mike Bundy, who gave me $16 for my trip, it was my first sponsorship! Thanks Mike!
I stopped at a bunch of fruit stands along the road, talking to people and filling up on some great, cheap, fruit! Fruit has become a main source of nutrition for me as it has made itself very prevalent along my route. The problem is that you need to consume a lot to fill up, but it makes a great mid-ride snack.
When I got to the US side of Niagara, the town looked like it was going into the shitter! There were many signs up for "Opening Soon" and a lot of closed doors. I did not feel comfortable biking through the city and the road conditions were brutal. I am very surprised that I did not get a flat.
As I crossed the boarder into Canada things turned very upscale and beautiful. I took many pictures of the falls and the surrounding area. I don't know when I will get to post these... probably when I make it to Hudson, WI, come the second week of September. I ended up deciding to cash in my HHonors Rewards points for a free hotel room at the Double Tree on the strip. The reservation used all 30,000 points and I was a little upset about this but the room was amazing! Two queen beds.. a large shower... two cookies... a bunch of coffee and a great location with a view! I spent the night out on the town walking up and down the main streets people watching and exploring the splendor of Niagara Falls. Overall it was a very good day! I was so relieved to be out of NY State and in another country.
Day 11 - Sunday August 23rd
85.5 miles
6:35.32 hrs
331. mph Max
12.5 mph Avg
Today was a very rough day! It rained all day, there was nothing to look at and my iPod ran out of juice so I had nothing to distract me from the dullness of the ride.
On a happy note, I did meet one gentleman who expressed that he would like to donate to the cause. This made me think of what I can do to be a little more aggressive in my campaigning for the cause. I do not have a set strategy for making my goal of 15K for the LAF. If I want to do this I am going to have to spend some extra time in a couple cities and sell some food or something. Anyone have any ideas?
6:35.32 hrs
331. mph Max
12.5 mph Avg
Today was a very rough day! It rained all day, there was nothing to look at and my iPod ran out of juice so I had nothing to distract me from the dullness of the ride.
On a happy note, I did meet one gentleman who expressed that he would like to donate to the cause. This made me think of what I can do to be a little more aggressive in my campaigning for the cause. I do not have a set strategy for making my goal of 15K for the LAF. If I want to do this I am going to have to spend some extra time in a couple cities and sell some food or something. Anyone have any ideas?
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Day 9 - Friday August 21st
85.69 miles
6:05.25 hrs
39.9 mph max
14.1 Avg
As you approach the Adirondacks from VT, as I did yesterday, and you ride up and down the rolling hills you can't imagine anything more beautiful. Once you cross over the boarder of VT/NY, the what once were mystic mountains turn into what seem to be little hills (compared to the White Mountains); It is kind of a disappointing site. It wasn't till I biked along Lake George that I thought that the Adirondacks were truly beautiful. I gazed into the crystal clear lake with large hills bulging out of the water to define the outer diameter and was immediately in a state of awe.
I stopped along lake George at a visitors station and met this very nice lady whom I talked to for quite some time about the Adirondacks. She convinced me to bike a certain route that she ensured would be low in traffic and not a lot of climbing, I think she mixed the two roads up! The route she sent me on started off with a 5.5 mile climb up the side of a mountain!
The funny thing about NY is that I think they try and deceive you whenever possible. Ask me why next time you see me and I will explain all the ways that they make you think one thing and deliver something totally different.
I wandered into a town called Camden at the end of my trip today and they had a Firemans Fair going on. I talked to a couple firemen and they allowed me to camp out under the large tent on the fairgrounds because it was going to rain 1/2 to 3/4 an inch. I unfortunately had to wait until the fair was over (11pm) to finally pitch tent. Prior to the end of the fair I had 3 potential donators to the cause, had fallen asleep on a bench for a least 30 min and was given some free fried clams by the fireman. The clams were not a good idea for they did not settle well and I had stomach aches all that night and the next morning.
6:05.25 hrs
39.9 mph max
14.1 Avg
As you approach the Adirondacks from VT, as I did yesterday, and you ride up and down the rolling hills you can't imagine anything more beautiful. Once you cross over the boarder of VT/NY, the what once were mystic mountains turn into what seem to be little hills (compared to the White Mountains); It is kind of a disappointing site. It wasn't till I biked along Lake George that I thought that the Adirondacks were truly beautiful. I gazed into the crystal clear lake with large hills bulging out of the water to define the outer diameter and was immediately in a state of awe.
I stopped along lake George at a visitors station and met this very nice lady whom I talked to for quite some time about the Adirondacks. She convinced me to bike a certain route that she ensured would be low in traffic and not a lot of climbing, I think she mixed the two roads up! The route she sent me on started off with a 5.5 mile climb up the side of a mountain!
The funny thing about NY is that I think they try and deceive you whenever possible. Ask me why next time you see me and I will explain all the ways that they make you think one thing and deliver something totally different.
I wandered into a town called Camden at the end of my trip today and they had a Firemans Fair going on. I talked to a couple firemen and they allowed me to camp out under the large tent on the fairgrounds because it was going to rain 1/2 to 3/4 an inch. I unfortunately had to wait until the fair was over (11pm) to finally pitch tent. Prior to the end of the fair I had 3 potential donators to the cause, had fallen asleep on a bench for a least 30 min and was given some free fried clams by the fireman. The clams were not a good idea for they did not settle well and I had stomach aches all that night and the next morning.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Day 8 - Thursday August 20th
I am too tired right now to add anything to the blog besides numerical input... it is as follows:
74.76 miles
6:19.47 hrs
43.0 mph Max
11.8 mph Avg
Let it be stated that the ride time is the actual time I spent peddling on my bike. My computer has an automatic setting that stops recording if the bike stops. So, when it says that I rode for 3 hours or so... I was probably on the road for 5 hours as it does not include breaks and such. Today was a long, hard day. A ton of climbing and a long distance. I look forward to the next couple days since the mountain stages are done until the Rockies!!! It is dissapointing to leave them all behind, as they give great scenery, but they are a pain in the ass sometimes, that you can take literally!
As I was on my bike today I thought a lot about cancer and what it must be like to fight against it. I then related it to the bike trip in the sense that this trip is my cancer... I must conquor it! There are no excuses... I do not get a break. I will bike every day no matter what the elements throw at me. I may try and dodge them but I must fight through this. I was granted the opportunity to do this amazing trip and I am going to make the most of it! This is the moment in my life where I define who I am, what I have and where I am going... it is my opportunity, my challenge and my choice in life. I MUST make the most of it and do it to the fullest. This is the only way! NO EXCUSES!
Now that I may have said something that I will regret down the line I must go to sleep... my eyes are droopy and I need to replenish for tomorrow... a day of projected heavy rain!
74.76 miles
6:19.47 hrs
43.0 mph Max
11.8 mph Avg
Let it be stated that the ride time is the actual time I spent peddling on my bike. My computer has an automatic setting that stops recording if the bike stops. So, when it says that I rode for 3 hours or so... I was probably on the road for 5 hours as it does not include breaks and such. Today was a long, hard day. A ton of climbing and a long distance. I look forward to the next couple days since the mountain stages are done until the Rockies!!! It is dissapointing to leave them all behind, as they give great scenery, but they are a pain in the ass sometimes, that you can take literally!
As I was on my bike today I thought a lot about cancer and what it must be like to fight against it. I then related it to the bike trip in the sense that this trip is my cancer... I must conquor it! There are no excuses... I do not get a break. I will bike every day no matter what the elements throw at me. I may try and dodge them but I must fight through this. I was granted the opportunity to do this amazing trip and I am going to make the most of it! This is the moment in my life where I define who I am, what I have and where I am going... it is my opportunity, my challenge and my choice in life. I MUST make the most of it and do it to the fullest. This is the only way! NO EXCUSES!
Now that I may have said something that I will regret down the line I must go to sleep... my eyes are droopy and I need to replenish for tomorrow... a day of projected heavy rain!
Day 7 - Wednesday August 19th
58.2 miles
4.49.05 hrs
47.4 mph Max
12 mph Avg
Today I passed the 400 mile marker and have set that as my minimum for travel each week. I want to travel at least 400 miles a week. I will shoot for 500 but will be happy with 400. Hopefully this means that I can make it to the Californian coast before it gets too cold.
I am sad to have this be the last day of riding in a group, but hopefully this means that I will be able to ride farther each day. I look forward to the possibility of meeting more people like the three I met yesterday and hope that it happens again shortly!
This night will be spent in luxury for I will not have the opportunity to stay in a real bed for $25 again, for a long time. I must head out now and make it through the Adirondack Mountains before it gets too late and starts raining! It could be a long day and night! Peace and love to all, I look forward to what adventures lie ahead!
4.49.05 hrs
47.4 mph Max
12 mph Avg
Today I passed the 400 mile marker and have set that as my minimum for travel each week. I want to travel at least 400 miles a week. I will shoot for 500 but will be happy with 400. Hopefully this means that I can make it to the Californian coast before it gets too cold.
I am sad to have this be the last day of riding in a group, but hopefully this means that I will be able to ride farther each day. I look forward to the possibility of meeting more people like the three I met yesterday and hope that it happens again shortly!
This night will be spent in luxury for I will not have the opportunity to stay in a real bed for $25 again, for a long time. I must head out now and make it through the Adirondack Mountains before it gets too late and starts raining! It could be a long day and night! Peace and love to all, I look forward to what adventures lie ahead!
Day 6 - Tuesday August 18th
45 miles
3:45.53 hours
37 mph Max
11 mph Avg
Today was a light day. I ended up spending the morning at the local library in Lyme printing off little cards to hand out to people with all my information on them so that I did not need to stop and write it all down every time. Since I had to purchase a roll of packaging tape when I mailed my computer home I decided to laminate these cards as well. This took me a lot longer than expected, it is the perfectionist in me, and I didn't get riding until around 3:00 pm. I was shooting for 40 miles and ended up being motivated to do more due to meeting three cyclist along the way.
I met these three cyclists on a large hill just over the boarder in VT. They are 26,28 and 32. It is an interesting group of guys that I fit in very well with. I was mid climb when one of them flew by me on the hill/mountain. He said a couple words, something about can't stop to talk, I had no idea what he was talking about. When the second one caught up with me he was not short of breath and talked to me a little on the way up. As I got to the top, I talked to these two guys for a couple min before the third showed up. They were doing a 400 mile loop of VT and NH, a route they got off of AdventureCyclist.com, the same site I was basing my route off of. Lucky for me, they were all heading towards Ticonderoga, NY and loved company. This meant that the next two days I had people to ride with and converse with!
There were a few setbacks in riding in a group: they convinced me (I allowed them) to spend more money than I normally would have on lodging and food, it prevented me from getting an early start every morning, it made it difficult at times to stop and take pictures while enjoying the scenery, I was not able to bike as far as I wanted and go at my own pace (if that be faster or slower). Along with the setbacks there were some advantages to riding in a group; it was never boring during the ride, we could travel faster than I could solo, I did not have to worry so much about planning my route because they had detailed directions from adventurecycling.com, they provided extra motivation that made travel easier.
Overall, I am very glad that I got to meet these three riders. This experience is more than just riding across the country to raise money for great organizations but it is also to get out in the world and hear different peoples stories. In each and every story there is wisdom to be shared and a moral to be gained. It is great to experience a wide range of perspectives by people within diverse cultures/areas/lifestyles.
3:45.53 hours
37 mph Max
11 mph Avg
Today was a light day. I ended up spending the morning at the local library in Lyme printing off little cards to hand out to people with all my information on them so that I did not need to stop and write it all down every time. Since I had to purchase a roll of packaging tape when I mailed my computer home I decided to laminate these cards as well. This took me a lot longer than expected, it is the perfectionist in me, and I didn't get riding until around 3:00 pm. I was shooting for 40 miles and ended up being motivated to do more due to meeting three cyclist along the way.
I met these three cyclists on a large hill just over the boarder in VT. They are 26,28 and 32. It is an interesting group of guys that I fit in very well with. I was mid climb when one of them flew by me on the hill/mountain. He said a couple words, something about can't stop to talk, I had no idea what he was talking about. When the second one caught up with me he was not short of breath and talked to me a little on the way up. As I got to the top, I talked to these two guys for a couple min before the third showed up. They were doing a 400 mile loop of VT and NH, a route they got off of AdventureCyclist.com, the same site I was basing my route off of. Lucky for me, they were all heading towards Ticonderoga, NY and loved company. This meant that the next two days I had people to ride with and converse with!
There were a few setbacks in riding in a group: they convinced me (I allowed them) to spend more money than I normally would have on lodging and food, it prevented me from getting an early start every morning, it made it difficult at times to stop and take pictures while enjoying the scenery, I was not able to bike as far as I wanted and go at my own pace (if that be faster or slower). Along with the setbacks there were some advantages to riding in a group; it was never boring during the ride, we could travel faster than I could solo, I did not have to worry so much about planning my route because they had detailed directions from adventurecycling.com, they provided extra motivation that made travel easier.
Overall, I am very glad that I got to meet these three riders. This experience is more than just riding across the country to raise money for great organizations but it is also to get out in the world and hear different peoples stories. In each and every story there is wisdom to be shared and a moral to be gained. It is great to experience a wide range of perspectives by people within diverse cultures/areas/lifestyles.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Day 5 - Monday August 17th, 2009
64.23 miles
5:48.43 hrs
42.6 mph Max
11.0 mph Avg
Overall this was a very good day for biking! The weather was cool, the birds chirping all with the sound of the stream running down the hill to my right. I had set my alarm for 4 am in fear that the park rangers would find my tent and give me a hefty ticket. Of course, I hit snooze till around 6:00 am, in my typical fashion. After quickly eating a healthy breakfast of organic peanut butter on a spoon, dipped multiple times in granola and chocolate, I headed up the rest of the White Mountains.
My legs ached with each stroke of the peddle and I did not seem to have the energy of the previous days ride. The mountain seemed to have it in for me, as for the portion of this giant I finished at the end of the previous day did not seem nearly as difficult. I thought to myself, what is it that I did different? Is the food I consumed for breakfast weighing me down? Maybe there was a little too much dairy (I am allergic) in the chocolate? I pushed all these thoughts to the back of my mind and continued to ride, telling myself, "no excuses!"
With both my knees taped, for injury prevention, I found a cadence that I liked and pushed on up the slope with two full water bottles and a packed trailer. I had just passed the last water stop for 12 miles before I found a place to camp the previous night and used one water bottle to make a scrumptious cup of boiled freeze dried vegetables with ramen. The thought crossed my mind to turn around, go a mile back, and refill my empties but after confirming with the map, as to the next water stop, I decided against it. I should be able to go 6 miles on 48 ounces of water!
As I rode the next 5 miles in agony, I gained a routine of climbing hard for 5 min and then taking a 30 second to one minute break to take in the view (aka. I needed water). Soon enough I found my water sources getting low and I started to worry. As I looked at the map and saw that I passed the last water stop without even knowing it, I really started to panic. I went from one scenic look out to the next in hopes of finding someone with some extra water. With about 6 ounces of water left I stopped at the third scenic view and decided to stretch and wait for someone with H2O...
I sat around for about 15 min taking in the view and stretching. Since it was so early in the morning there was little traffic and no observers stopping by. Every passing car I was filled with hope, and then disappointment. There was one car that stopped by for a brief moment but did not even take the time to get out of the car and take on the full effect of the mountains. As I saw that car drive away, I noticed a man in a car, hidden in the shade on the upper side of this two tear lot. The other lot was located on the opposite side of the highway from where I was located. I watched the man get out of his car, go in his trunk and pull out a gallon jug of water to wash off a cup or fill a cup with water. He was too far away for my eyes to tell exactly what he was doing, but the important thing was that my eyes knew that he had the vital elements that my body needed... H2O!
As I finished stretching I thought how I would approach this man who seemed to be living out of his car, or at least slept there. I had remembered seeing him earlier in the morning at a different parking destination where I stopped to take a sip or water myself, he nearly hit me backing out. With little left to do besides admit to this stranger that I was an idiot and did not ration my water intake properly, I approached.
I asked the man, who was sipping on a cup of coffee, if I could by any chance trouble him to spare some of his water for a poor soul lost in this world. He happily agreed and proceeded to take two gallons of water out of his truck. As he filled my two water bottles, he started telling me his story about his life and what he was doing. He was living out of his car and had been for the past 2 years, writing a book about traveling. After a few jokes, to ease the situation, I told him my story about my travels followed by important questioning of where exactly I was on the map in my hand. He proceeded to share his woes about how the maps are all wrong and such and how we are actually 'here', as he pointed to a spot on the map. Thinking that I still had about six miles to climb I followed up with, "Where is the summit?"
With my eyes still glued to the paper in hand he took his finger off the paper and said, "there".
I said, "Where?"
He turned to me, as to make eye contact, pointed straight out in front of him and repeated, "there, about 50 feet past the trees that block the road from our view!"
"You mean to tell me that I am about 15 vertical feet from the summit? Holy cow!!!! I don't need your water!", I screamed as I threw the water in his face! (I didn't really do the action of throwing the water in his face... but I did say it! It just gives the story that much more effect, doesn't it?) Anyways, I asked the gentleman if he wouldn't mind taking my picture and he told me to meet him on the other side of the summit, for the view is that much better! I ended up talking with the guy for another 30 min about the best(easiest) way to get out of the mountians once in Lincoln, his book that he is writing, travelers in general, etc. It was good company in a beautiful place!
Now came the fun part... the decent! 8 miles of downhill, where I didn't have to do an ounce of work nor consume an ounce of water! Sadly, my max speed was realized at 35 miles per hour when my BOB would start to shake.. slow decent, boooo!
As I rode through the base town of Lincoln I found an internet cafe and post office conveniently located right next to each other. I spent the midst of the day online, updating my blog and finishing the website, before I mailed my computer off to Hudson, WI. This means that my blogging and updates to the website will most likely slow down. I know... sad isn't it? If you have questions about anything please feel free to text me at 7153381039 during the day and I will fill you in with any information you may desire (ALMOST any information pertaining to the trip, for you literalists out there!).
With my route all planned out for me, and my load depreciated I was anything but worried about the ride ahead of me. As I turned onto 118, the road of which I was informed was the best (least hilly) way out, I noticed that the road was not perfectly kept, nor was there a large shoulder as there was on 112 (the alternative route of which I remember seeing on a topographic map as having a pretty large climb!). Against better judgment, and with some misinformed advice, I proceeded up what I assumed to be the a 'little hill'. As I continued to climb... I continued to swear with every persistent slope around every corner with minimal to no flats in between. I kept thinking to my self... ok, this has to be the last one! 3 miles later I find myself climbing the last accent to the peak. When I reached the top there was a sign behind me, heading the other direction that stated, '8% grade next 3 miles' (I had just gone up that). It was a great feeling to topple that climb. I remembered thinking to myself at the bottom that if it climbed for more than .5 miles I was going to turn around and take 112. Now, I was happy that I did not.
Not more than 30 seconds after I took another picture next to the daunting sign, the guy who gave me the advice to take this route pulled up to the summit in his car. He rolled down his window and said, "Sorry, I didn't remember that hill being so steep nor so long, should have taken the other one! Can I fill your water?"
Overall, I thought it was a pretty funny situation; random guy who almost runs me over, gives me water at the top of the first peak, gives me poor advice on the road to take out of the mountains, and meets me at the top of the next peak feeling guilty of the advice he gave. He did end up giving me a map of VT and NY to use in my next two days of traveling though.
The decent of the hill down from that climb was amazing though! It seemed like it lasted a lifetime! I was also able to go over 40 without my trailer BOBing around (for those of you who don't know the brand of the trailer on my bike is BOB).
The only other thing I have to complain about for the rest of this day was the horrid road I had to to travel on 25A to get to my night time destination, Lyme. There were 1.5 inch gaps every ten feet that spanned the whole road for a good 15 miles... my butt was soooooooooo sore!!!
I sat around for about 15 min taking in the view and stretching. Since it was so early in the morning there was little traffic and no observers stopping by. Every passing car I was filled with hope, and then disappointment. There was one car that stopped by for a brief moment but did not even take the time to get out of the car and take on the full effect of the mountains. As I saw that car drive away, I noticed a man in a car, hidden in the shade on the upper side of this two tear lot. The other lot was located on the opposite side of the highway from where I was located. I watched the man get out of his car, go in his trunk and pull out a gallon jug of water to wash off a cup or fill a cup with water. He was too far away for my eyes to tell exactly what he was doing, but the important thing was that my eyes knew that he had the vital elements that my body needed... H2O!
As I finished stretching I thought how I would approach this man who seemed to be living out of his car, or at least slept there. I had remembered seeing him earlier in the morning at a different parking destination where I stopped to take a sip or water myself, he nearly hit me backing out. With little left to do besides admit to this stranger that I was an idiot and did not ration my water intake properly, I approached.
I asked the man, who was sipping on a cup of coffee, if I could by any chance trouble him to spare some of his water for a poor soul lost in this world. He happily agreed and proceeded to take two gallons of water out of his truck. As he filled my two water bottles, he started telling me his story about his life and what he was doing. He was living out of his car and had been for the past 2 years, writing a book about traveling. After a few jokes, to ease the situation, I told him my story about my travels followed by important questioning of where exactly I was on the map in my hand. He proceeded to share his woes about how the maps are all wrong and such and how we are actually 'here', as he pointed to a spot on the map. Thinking that I still had about six miles to climb I followed up with, "Where is the summit?"
With my eyes still glued to the paper in hand he took his finger off the paper and said, "there".
I said, "Where?"
He turned to me, as to make eye contact, pointed straight out in front of him and repeated, "there, about 50 feet past the trees that block the road from our view!"
"You mean to tell me that I am about 15 vertical feet from the summit? Holy cow!!!! I don't need your water!", I screamed as I threw the water in his face! (I didn't really do the action of throwing the water in his face... but I did say it! It just gives the story that much more effect, doesn't it?) Anyways, I asked the gentleman if he wouldn't mind taking my picture and he told me to meet him on the other side of the summit, for the view is that much better! I ended up talking with the guy for another 30 min about the best(easiest) way to get out of the mountians once in Lincoln, his book that he is writing, travelers in general, etc. It was good company in a beautiful place!
Now came the fun part... the decent! 8 miles of downhill, where I didn't have to do an ounce of work nor consume an ounce of water! Sadly, my max speed was realized at 35 miles per hour when my BOB would start to shake.. slow decent, boooo!
As I rode through the base town of Lincoln I found an internet cafe and post office conveniently located right next to each other. I spent the midst of the day online, updating my blog and finishing the website, before I mailed my computer off to Hudson, WI. This means that my blogging and updates to the website will most likely slow down. I know... sad isn't it? If you have questions about anything please feel free to text me at 7153381039 during the day and I will fill you in with any information you may desire (ALMOST any information pertaining to the trip, for you literalists out there!).
With my route all planned out for me, and my load depreciated I was anything but worried about the ride ahead of me. As I turned onto 118, the road of which I was informed was the best (least hilly) way out, I noticed that the road was not perfectly kept, nor was there a large shoulder as there was on 112 (the alternative route of which I remember seeing on a topographic map as having a pretty large climb!). Against better judgment, and with some misinformed advice, I proceeded up what I assumed to be the a 'little hill'. As I continued to climb... I continued to swear with every persistent slope around every corner with minimal to no flats in between. I kept thinking to my self... ok, this has to be the last one! 3 miles later I find myself climbing the last accent to the peak. When I reached the top there was a sign behind me, heading the other direction that stated, '8% grade next 3 miles' (I had just gone up that). It was a great feeling to topple that climb. I remembered thinking to myself at the bottom that if it climbed for more than .5 miles I was going to turn around and take 112. Now, I was happy that I did not.
Not more than 30 seconds after I took another picture next to the daunting sign, the guy who gave me the advice to take this route pulled up to the summit in his car. He rolled down his window and said, "Sorry, I didn't remember that hill being so steep nor so long, should have taken the other one! Can I fill your water?"
Overall, I thought it was a pretty funny situation; random guy who almost runs me over, gives me water at the top of the first peak, gives me poor advice on the road to take out of the mountains, and meets me at the top of the next peak feeling guilty of the advice he gave. He did end up giving me a map of VT and NY to use in my next two days of traveling though.
The decent of the hill down from that climb was amazing though! It seemed like it lasted a lifetime! I was also able to go over 40 without my trailer BOBing around (for those of you who don't know the brand of the trailer on my bike is BOB).
The only other thing I have to complain about for the rest of this day was the horrid road I had to to travel on 25A to get to my night time destination, Lyme. There were 1.5 inch gaps every ten feet that spanned the whole road for a good 15 miles... my butt was soooooooooo sore!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Day 4 - Sunday August 16th
Day 4
58.59 miles
5:32.10 hrs
36.1 mph Max
10.5 mph Avg
Today I entered the mountains of NH! After taping my injured right knee I found my legs spunky and ready for anything. I cruised up about 15 miles of slopes in about 2 hours or so and found myself in a stream, taking an 'ice' bath (thanks Mike!). Originally I was going to purchase a camp ground but after talking to a couple local campers they said that I only needed to do that if I was going to build a fire. So, I just found a nice piece of grass right off the stream and pitched my tent.
The encouragement and energy of the people on the Kancamagus mountains was amazing. With every corner there was an amazing view and people honking while sticking a 'thumbs up' out their window (at least I thought it was a thumbs up, maybe not?). There were people offering me food when I stopped and beer at the end of the day! It was quite lovely. There was one point when I stopped and met this lady who wanted some credentials of some kind. I am going to have to make up some business cards and get them sooner rather than later. I think I will ask my brother to do something about this. Overall a good day!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Well, since my other blog that I set up specifically for my fundraising event is not working... i will just have to use this one for the same purpose!
Here are my stats on my trip thus far
Day 1
58.43 miles
4:52.47 hrs
36.2 mph max
11.9 mph avg
I got to a very late start (2pm) and booked it as far as I could before sundown. I went to a camp site at about 7:30 and they wanted $40 for me to pitch a tent there. I politely told them about my cause and they guy would have none of it! He said, "Everyone is raising money, I have given out too many sites already, it has to stop somewhere." I then told him "no thanks, I will go elsewhere." I then went down the street a mile and found a clearing in the woods... pitched my tent and spent the rest of the night worrying about getting eaten by a bear!
Lesson of the day: there will be no out of saddle sprints or out of saddle climbs. With the trailer on the back and the frame being steel, there is a lot of bending that goes on when I get out of the saddle. Hopefully I won't need this!
Day 2
71.49 miles
6:53.36 hrs
40.4 mph max
10.3 mph Avg
I learned one critical piece of information today. If I go faster than 35 mph my bike starts taking over and wobbling all around. Not too fun when trying to book it down a hill! I spent a lot of time on the road and didn't get very far, comparative to yesterday. I did find a nice little place to camp on Highway 27 that only cost me $12, I got a hot shower, a pool to lounge in and they even cooked me breakfast the next morning! Not to mention the free blueberries and 2 cucumbers that I recieved as well!
Day 3
66.42 miles
5:37.49
32.4 mph Max
11.7 Avg
Gorgeous trip today! I decided to alter my route a little and head down to Portland, ME so that I could stay closer to the ocean. Unfortunately I did not get to see it again! The highway was just a little too far off of the coast to have that view. At the end of the day I went to a loading dock/beach to inquire about some camp grounds around. I ended up asking some ladies who were just loading their boat up and one offered for me to stay in her back yard for the night. I was so gracious for their hospitality! Their house was right on a lake where I immediately jumped in and played fetch with the dog. They even bought me some food! Thank you Calise Family!
Here are my stats on my trip thus far
Day 1
58.43 miles
4:52.47 hrs
36.2 mph max
11.9 mph avg
I got to a very late start (2pm) and booked it as far as I could before sundown. I went to a camp site at about 7:30 and they wanted $40 for me to pitch a tent there. I politely told them about my cause and they guy would have none of it! He said, "Everyone is raising money, I have given out too many sites already, it has to stop somewhere." I then told him "no thanks, I will go elsewhere." I then went down the street a mile and found a clearing in the woods... pitched my tent and spent the rest of the night worrying about getting eaten by a bear!
Lesson of the day: there will be no out of saddle sprints or out of saddle climbs. With the trailer on the back and the frame being steel, there is a lot of bending that goes on when I get out of the saddle. Hopefully I won't need this!
Day 2
71.49 miles
6:53.36 hrs
40.4 mph max
10.3 mph Avg
I learned one critical piece of information today. If I go faster than 35 mph my bike starts taking over and wobbling all around. Not too fun when trying to book it down a hill! I spent a lot of time on the road and didn't get very far, comparative to yesterday. I did find a nice little place to camp on Highway 27 that only cost me $12, I got a hot shower, a pool to lounge in and they even cooked me breakfast the next morning! Not to mention the free blueberries and 2 cucumbers that I recieved as well!
Day 3
66.42 miles
5:37.49
32.4 mph Max
11.7 Avg
Gorgeous trip today! I decided to alter my route a little and head down to Portland, ME so that I could stay closer to the ocean. Unfortunately I did not get to see it again! The highway was just a little too far off of the coast to have that view. At the end of the day I went to a loading dock/beach to inquire about some camp grounds around. I ended up asking some ladies who were just loading their boat up and one offered for me to stay in her back yard for the night. I was so gracious for their hospitality! Their house was right on a lake where I immediately jumped in and played fetch with the dog. They even bought me some food! Thank you Calise Family!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Recalling the Change
This is a post that I wrote quite a while back but never finished it. I am posting it now in hopes that I do not lose sight of the things that have happened to me thus far. There were many things that I wanted to share but never got around to it. Those things include
My experience exploring NYC with Bryon McDonald for the first time
My ultimate experiences in MA
My change of goals
etc.
I don't know if I will ever write about these subjects but I feel that it will be good to at least mention them now so that when I look back I can remember what was important to me during this time frame.
“It is now September 28th, the day before my 24th birthday. The inevitable day that is the middle ground to becoming un-young. It has been quite some time since my last blog. Now that I have had over 6 months off of writing, I hope that I can filter out the unimportant details, or the ones I have forgotten, and focus on the things that have really made an impact on me so far.
As I re-read my posts of the past I recognize many grammatical errors that I want to change. I would typically go back and change these but I have come to the conclusion that these imperfections of grammatical significance are not something to be erased from the past. These mistakes defined “me” in that moment. I therefore have accepted these mistakes and have decided to leave them unaltered. To catch you up to present date, this entry will be about the impact that Frequencies has had on my life.
When I left off writing, I was talking about my experiences while traveling to a familiar place; home. The only difference was that I was experiencing life through a different set of eyes. This was a time in my life where I truly felt like things made sense and it was becoming clear who I was with every passing moment. Unfortunately, not everyone was accepting the “new me”. I found that many people were impervious to change and would not accept it in the least. This was very evident in the way that a couple close friends were treating me. I can’t blame them for not treating me different as if I had not experienced what I did I doubt that I would really understand how 2 weeks away could change someone so much. I was very upset though, and these circumstances really made me think about how blind some people are in their ego state of mind. The impact that the ego has on everyone has become dramatically obvious. It seems a common trend that we let this ‘fad’ take over our lives.
I have really learned to appreciate the little things in life. One of them is the company of any other person. Since I moved to this new area (Western Mass) with no friends at all, it has been hard to get out and make friends. At first I was very lonely but this taught me that when there are people around me to be grateful for their presence in my life.
Once I found an ultimate team (funny story but way to long to type) friendships quickly formed but during the time of limbo (between groups of friends) I really connected up with some of my close friends back home and it made me realize who in my life is very important to me. (You all know who you are!)
To put everything into organizational thought is very difficult at this moment because I am not entirely sure of everything that I have perceived. I don't know how it all ties together or the meaning behind each occurrence. All I can do is put it on paper and hope that someday, when I look back on it, I can recognize a pattern that makes sense. A pattern that has defined my character and symbolizes ‘me’.
I am tired of sitting around waiting for things to happen. This is going to stop! From now on I am going make my own luck!“
My experience exploring NYC with Bryon McDonald for the first time
My ultimate experiences in MA
My change of goals
etc.
I don't know if I will ever write about these subjects but I feel that it will be good to at least mention them now so that when I look back I can remember what was important to me during this time frame.
“It is now September 28th, the day before my 24th birthday. The inevitable day that is the middle ground to becoming un-young. It has been quite some time since my last blog. Now that I have had over 6 months off of writing, I hope that I can filter out the unimportant details, or the ones I have forgotten, and focus on the things that have really made an impact on me so far.
As I re-read my posts of the past I recognize many grammatical errors that I want to change. I would typically go back and change these but I have come to the conclusion that these imperfections of grammatical significance are not something to be erased from the past. These mistakes defined “me” in that moment. I therefore have accepted these mistakes and have decided to leave them unaltered. To catch you up to present date, this entry will be about the impact that Frequencies has had on my life.
When I left off writing, I was talking about my experiences while traveling to a familiar place; home. The only difference was that I was experiencing life through a different set of eyes. This was a time in my life where I truly felt like things made sense and it was becoming clear who I was with every passing moment. Unfortunately, not everyone was accepting the “new me”. I found that many people were impervious to change and would not accept it in the least. This was very evident in the way that a couple close friends were treating me. I can’t blame them for not treating me different as if I had not experienced what I did I doubt that I would really understand how 2 weeks away could change someone so much. I was very upset though, and these circumstances really made me think about how blind some people are in their ego state of mind. The impact that the ego has on everyone has become dramatically obvious. It seems a common trend that we let this ‘fad’ take over our lives.
I have really learned to appreciate the little things in life. One of them is the company of any other person. Since I moved to this new area (Western Mass) with no friends at all, it has been hard to get out and make friends. At first I was very lonely but this taught me that when there are people around me to be grateful for their presence in my life.
Once I found an ultimate team (funny story but way to long to type) friendships quickly formed but during the time of limbo (between groups of friends) I really connected up with some of my close friends back home and it made me realize who in my life is very important to me. (You all know who you are!)
To put everything into organizational thought is very difficult at this moment because I am not entirely sure of everything that I have perceived. I don't know how it all ties together or the meaning behind each occurrence. All I can do is put it on paper and hope that someday, when I look back on it, I can recognize a pattern that makes sense. A pattern that has defined my character and symbolizes ‘me’.
I am tired of sitting around waiting for things to happen. This is going to stop! From now on I am going make my own luck!“
Friday, May 15, 2009
Fast Forward
Although it has been quite some time since my last post I have been periodically writing about my life and documenting it in word files. A lot has changed in my life and every time I sat down to write I found myself overwhelmed by the content that I wanted to cover. When I finished writing for that day I found myself unable/unmotivated to finish the tale due to its grueling length. So in short here is the summary of my existence:
I live in Charlotte (Pineville), NC 28226. I work at Oerlikon Balzers located in Rock Hill South Carolina. I have been here since December 2008. I don't mind the location but I can't say I am overly enthusiastic about the job. It is a pseudo-engineering job that i thought was going to consist of a lot more "actual" engineering work. I work as an 'applications engineer' and I mainly take new product and run it through the preliminary coating processes until both parties are happy with the coating results and then transfer it to production. It holds no real significance to myself or any goal I hold in the future besides to learn as much as possible in the time granted to me.
You could say that I am still at a point in my life, the "quarter life crisis", where I am trying to figure out exactly what I want to do. It is a struggle to separate the ego from the heart. A very good college friend recently (May 15th 2009) sent me a poem that I harmonize with, at this moment. I read the words and things start to make sense. My mind clears and I begin to think rationally about what it is in my life that is missing. It is not a complex poem, by any means, but I have an urge to share it with you.
It goes as follows:
GATHER ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old time is still a-flying;
And the same flower that smiles today
Tomorrow will be dying.
The glorious lamp of heaven the sun,
The higher he's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he's to setting.
That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.
Then be not coy, but use your time,
And, while ye may, go marry;
For, having lost but once your prime,
You may forever tarry.
Robert Herrick
This is my examination of the poem and what it means to me, probably similar to yourself and unoriginal but the meaning is still true.
Time is still on my side, I have not let it all gone by (there is still a chance, but don't hesitate)
But opportunities come and go, each day they will pass us by
It is not worth letting them sail by unnoticed
The faster you realize your dreams the better
For time does not halt for you to contemplate
Don't fret about the future but look forward
Don't let these opportunities pass by,
for you may forever regret not trying
To me it has a simple meaning: get your ass in gear and find what you love because every day spent not seeking or doing what you love is a day lost.
The first words that came to my mind after reading this poem were "adventure and exploration". This is what I seek in my life right now and it just gives me more inspiration to continue with the planning of my bike trip and start conjuring up ideas for an European excursion. When I lose track of this mind frame I start thinking about stability and working a job I don't exactly like. I don't know if I should settle for a median or go for the gold. Something is telling me to go for the gold...
This is all I have to write at the moment. The next few entries will be compilations of my past writings that I have not posted because they were not complete. They may be scrappy and all over the place but I don't know if I will ever post them if I wait until I have finished them.
I live in Charlotte (Pineville), NC 28226. I work at Oerlikon Balzers located in Rock Hill South Carolina. I have been here since December 2008. I don't mind the location but I can't say I am overly enthusiastic about the job. It is a pseudo-engineering job that i thought was going to consist of a lot more "actual" engineering work. I work as an 'applications engineer' and I mainly take new product and run it through the preliminary coating processes until both parties are happy with the coating results and then transfer it to production. It holds no real significance to myself or any goal I hold in the future besides to learn as much as possible in the time granted to me.
You could say that I am still at a point in my life, the "quarter life crisis", where I am trying to figure out exactly what I want to do. It is a struggle to separate the ego from the heart. A very good college friend recently (May 15th 2009) sent me a poem that I harmonize with, at this moment. I read the words and things start to make sense. My mind clears and I begin to think rationally about what it is in my life that is missing. It is not a complex poem, by any means, but I have an urge to share it with you.
It goes as follows:
GATHER ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old time is still a-flying;
And the same flower that smiles today
Tomorrow will be dying.
The glorious lamp of heaven the sun,
The higher he's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he's to setting.
That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.
Then be not coy, but use your time,
And, while ye may, go marry;
For, having lost but once your prime,
You may forever tarry.
Robert Herrick
This is my examination of the poem and what it means to me, probably similar to yourself and unoriginal but the meaning is still true.
Time is still on my side, I have not let it all gone by (there is still a chance, but don't hesitate)
But opportunities come and go, each day they will pass us by
It is not worth letting them sail by unnoticed
The faster you realize your dreams the better
For time does not halt for you to contemplate
Don't fret about the future but look forward
Don't let these opportunities pass by,
for you may forever regret not trying
To me it has a simple meaning: get your ass in gear and find what you love because every day spent not seeking or doing what you love is a day lost.
The first words that came to my mind after reading this poem were "adventure and exploration". This is what I seek in my life right now and it just gives me more inspiration to continue with the planning of my bike trip and start conjuring up ideas for an European excursion. When I lose track of this mind frame I start thinking about stability and working a job I don't exactly like. I don't know if I should settle for a median or go for the gold. Something is telling me to go for the gold...
This is all I have to write at the moment. The next few entries will be compilations of my past writings that I have not posted because they were not complete. They may be scrappy and all over the place but I don't know if I will ever post them if I wait until I have finished them.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Day 13 - Back to Reality
I was unable to sleep well last night and I cannot pinpoint the exact reason. Maybe it has to do with the threat of the real world fast approaching and all that I have to do when I get home, or the anxiety that I did not get as much out of this program as I could have. This was a silly thought because I got out of it exactly what I needed to get out of it. It is comparable to the message that McGagger tried to get across in one of his songs, “you can’t always get what you want … you get what you need.”
I woke up feeling exhausted and with only 20 min to get ready. I jumped in the shower quick, rand downstairs and sat in the circle with nothing in my stomach. The intention was made to be myself in everything that I do.
Today was very structured and seemed almost rushed. We only had so much time before the program would be done and according to the leaders we had a lot to accomplish. We did some brain work on our partners and it was quite the experience. While working on my partner, my hands were guided as if I was playing a well known song on the guitar. Every movement was effortless and ‘meant to be’. Spirit was really guiding during this period and I sometimes opened my eyes to see exactly where my fingers were so that I was not going to poke my partners eyes out. Every time I checked my hands I wanted to chuckle because they were right where they were supposed to be.
While getting worked on, about half way through the treatment, there was a point when two electrodes at the points of my temples shot what seemed to be a lightning bolt of energy towards the middle of my brain. I started to think, “oh shit, I hope I did not just erase my brain. Wait… I am thinking, ok, I’m good!” From this time out I started to dream a little bit. Then while I was starting to wake up, I was up watching a cartoon playing on what seemed to be a tv screen, in my head. The cartoon was clear as a bell and the birds in the cartoon did exactly what I told them to do. Cartoons are something that I rarely watch and it was fun to play around with them in my head. When I opened my eyes I was surprised to find that I was not watching tv. They say that brain work activates new parts of your brain to start functioning. This was an example of exactly that a new part of my brain being activated. It was fun to see more of a creative side come out of me.
As the workshop came to a close we had one final lunch and then it was farewell! It was fun to sit down and not have to think about what we were going to be doing next, although the stress of the real world was more evident. As my father came to pick me up I found that I really was going to miss these new people in my life. Even though I did not really get to know them very well, there was a deep connection to most! It was interesting to see how much support and love everyone possessed for one another! We shared an experience that not many have. An uplifting, enlightening journey towards nirvana!
As we drove home I started to get a headache from the motion of the car. The trek home was like a journey to a familiar land, full of new perceptions.
I woke up feeling exhausted and with only 20 min to get ready. I jumped in the shower quick, rand downstairs and sat in the circle with nothing in my stomach. The intention was made to be myself in everything that I do.
Today was very structured and seemed almost rushed. We only had so much time before the program would be done and according to the leaders we had a lot to accomplish. We did some brain work on our partners and it was quite the experience. While working on my partner, my hands were guided as if I was playing a well known song on the guitar. Every movement was effortless and ‘meant to be’. Spirit was really guiding during this period and I sometimes opened my eyes to see exactly where my fingers were so that I was not going to poke my partners eyes out. Every time I checked my hands I wanted to chuckle because they were right where they were supposed to be.
While getting worked on, about half way through the treatment, there was a point when two electrodes at the points of my temples shot what seemed to be a lightning bolt of energy towards the middle of my brain. I started to think, “oh shit, I hope I did not just erase my brain. Wait… I am thinking, ok, I’m good!” From this time out I started to dream a little bit. Then while I was starting to wake up, I was up watching a cartoon playing on what seemed to be a tv screen, in my head. The cartoon was clear as a bell and the birds in the cartoon did exactly what I told them to do. Cartoons are something that I rarely watch and it was fun to play around with them in my head. When I opened my eyes I was surprised to find that I was not watching tv. They say that brain work activates new parts of your brain to start functioning. This was an example of exactly that a new part of my brain being activated. It was fun to see more of a creative side come out of me.
As the workshop came to a close we had one final lunch and then it was farewell! It was fun to sit down and not have to think about what we were going to be doing next, although the stress of the real world was more evident. As my father came to pick me up I found that I really was going to miss these new people in my life. Even though I did not really get to know them very well, there was a deep connection to most! It was interesting to see how much support and love everyone possessed for one another! We shared an experience that not many have. An uplifting, enlightening journey towards nirvana!
As we drove home I started to get a headache from the motion of the car. The trek home was like a journey to a familiar land, full of new perceptions.
Day 12 - Becoming a Practitioner
Today was full of talking about being a professional practitioner. We covered many aspects of what it entails and what we need to do to make sure that we are safe. Much valuable information was presented and everyone had to soak it all up.
My intention was set: "to love, listen to, learn and feel myself and everyone around me."
One of the most helpful things we did in this session was give each other feedback from the sessions we preformed today and the previous day. It would not have been possible to gain this information from patients who had no idea if you were doing things right or wrong.
Besides those two things and an introduction to Brain Work, all we had was our BIG test! It really wasn’t that big at all and it was funny to see everyone scrambling around the house trying to cram all the information they could about the test into their brains when the had obviously been programmed to stay disconnected from it. This really was evident when I was a the cadaver for the tests and people had a hard time explaining things. There was quite a bit of stumbling for words which would not have happened to anyone given they were well rested and did not just go through two weeks of intensive “therapy” (used lightly).
I am afraid that is all that I have to write about for today, short and sweet! The session is almost over and being our last full day the anticipation of going back into the “real world” is frequent.
My intention was set: "to love, listen to, learn and feel myself and everyone around me."
One of the most helpful things we did in this session was give each other feedback from the sessions we preformed today and the previous day. It would not have been possible to gain this information from patients who had no idea if you were doing things right or wrong.
Besides those two things and an introduction to Brain Work, all we had was our BIG test! It really wasn’t that big at all and it was funny to see everyone scrambling around the house trying to cram all the information they could about the test into their brains when the had obviously been programmed to stay disconnected from it. This really was evident when I was a the cadaver for the tests and people had a hard time explaining things. There was quite a bit of stumbling for words which would not have happened to anyone given they were well rested and did not just go through two weeks of intensive “therapy” (used lightly).
I am afraid that is all that I have to write about for today, short and sweet! The session is almost over and being our last full day the anticipation of going back into the “real world” is frequent.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Day 11 -Connection With Self
Last night I did not get very good sleep do to my late night talk session with Rita and Terry. When I woke up in the morning I felt very out of it. Specific parts of my body felt swollen like my head, nose, tongue, hands and feet. It was like I was looking into a convex mirror. My head felt like it was continually growing while being compressed by a hat, of which I was not wearing. My tongue felt like it weighted 10 lbs and my nose felt the size of a racquetball. These feelings lasted well through the morning circle! I set my intentions in this state of mind and forgot what they were no more than 5 min after. Later on in the day I was having trouble remembering something and someone commented that I met my intention. I then proceeded to ask what my intention was because I could not remember. Everyone around me started laughing and told me that I set my intention to, “step out of my mind” or something long those lines. Man if I new that that was going to happen I would have set my intentions a little higher like: “I intend to find the meaning of life.” Just another missed opportunity!
New intention: “to be true to myself in everything that I do”
Today was in a little bit of a different order than the previous. We talked briefly, set intentions, did our working sessions, were initiated, did formations and then set up our own treatment plan for one of our selected peers and performed the session. It ended up being a pretty long day!
This afternoon we were initiated as practitioners and all we have to do now is get through tomorrow and pass the test. After that we are pretty much set and just have one session to give and some practitioner information to go over + a summary and demonstration of brain work! It is very weird to think that we will be able to practice this work on clients and could potentially make a living from it, originally and still not my intention. I have decided that since I have gone through this program that I am going to use my new “powers” to do trades for massage sessions! I have never received a professional massage because I never wanted to fork over $65 for an hour massage. Now that I am certified to do Frequencies work, worth equal value if not more, I have something that many people will probably be willing to trade sessions for. So, if you are looking for some frequencies work and are a masseuse… let me know, I would also take chiropractic sessions!
There has been an increase in my working confidence. I feel that I know what I am doing and am confident in what I feel. I know that I do not have full control, if any, over the situation and I just have to feel it happening. I am curious to see if there is any change in my confidence in life. I feel that I am a confident person in what I know how to do but maybe there are things that I will be confident in that I have no idea how to do. Only time will tell.
New intention: “to be true to myself in everything that I do”
Today was in a little bit of a different order than the previous. We talked briefly, set intentions, did our working sessions, were initiated, did formations and then set up our own treatment plan for one of our selected peers and performed the session. It ended up being a pretty long day!
This afternoon we were initiated as practitioners and all we have to do now is get through tomorrow and pass the test. After that we are pretty much set and just have one session to give and some practitioner information to go over + a summary and demonstration of brain work! It is very weird to think that we will be able to practice this work on clients and could potentially make a living from it, originally and still not my intention. I have decided that since I have gone through this program that I am going to use my new “powers” to do trades for massage sessions! I have never received a professional massage because I never wanted to fork over $65 for an hour massage. Now that I am certified to do Frequencies work, worth equal value if not more, I have something that many people will probably be willing to trade sessions for. So, if you are looking for some frequencies work and are a masseuse… let me know, I would also take chiropractic sessions!
There has been an increase in my working confidence. I feel that I know what I am doing and am confident in what I feel. I know that I do not have full control, if any, over the situation and I just have to feel it happening. I am curious to see if there is any change in my confidence in life. I feel that I am a confident person in what I know how to do but maybe there are things that I will be confident in that I have no idea how to do. Only time will tell.
Day 10 - A Glimpse Into My Heart
Intention: To open my heart to who I am and where I am supposed to go. I made this intention because I have gone far enough in this course without directly asking the higher powers at hand for exactly what I want. It felt kind of selfish to be asking for such but I don’t think that they got too mad at me for doing so. By they I mean the higher powers at hand.
I had some interesting experiences today. While giving work to my partner I really felt the flow of the work and was able to actually feel some things and experienced the true experience of the work. I really let go and let it take control of the situation and allowed myself to be the key to transportation of such energy. One of the coolest experiences was when I was working on my partners spine. Each time we would be in a door and slide towards their spine and connect with the vertebrae I would receive chills down my spine, a sign of a frequency change in your body. I could have expected this every once in a while as I worked on a “patient” but this happened every 30 times I touched the spine. This was not the ending of this experience either. While also working on the spine I could feel, and there fore anticipate my partner having her own changes of frequency. There were numerous times that as I came into a doorway, I felt it really “heat up” and my partner would have a physical reaction to the intensity of energy that I felt. It was really fulfilling to know that I could have that effect on someone. Even though it was not me putting the energy into the person I could feel it! It was as if we were one, and we were in another dimension together.
There is such an importance in this life that we all have to really breathe in every experience we have. By breathing we are allowing ourselves to feel the world and everything that is happening to us. Taking your emotions you have in a situation and accepting them allows us to be true to ourselves.
It was brought up at dinner today on lifestyles that people choose and how they die. Some people feel that there is no point in eating healthy because they would not be happy if they did not eat the foods they enjoy so much. They take quality of life over quantity, but it is a double sided argument. How do you now that is the best you can live if you know your body is not in as good of shape, not speaking athletic shape, as possible? Others strive for a perfect diet and workout regimen in hope for a longer life and better quality from being healthy. The fact of the matter is that you will live your life the way you want to live it and really search in yourself and find what makes YOU and you alone happy! This really got me to thinking about career choice and what I want to do for the rest of my life. I really want to find something, if I have not already found it, that I love doing. It is not worth being miserable and having to fight through life when if I can do something that is true to myself I can just BE! When I look back on my life I want to be able to say, “there is nothing in my life that I would have changed … I love what I did, I love who I am, I love who I am with and I love how I got here!”
When I was given my treatment for the day I really tried to focus in on my intention and feel it in my body. I more specifically asked spirit to let my heart know what it wants/needs. As I was on the table random things started popping into my head, except they were not so random. Camp Avanti was one of the visions and the other was all the children I have worked with through IDS, a therapy program where I worked as a line therapist. These instances were points in my life where I found joy and fulfillment in my life. I am not taking this as a case where that is what I need to do, work with children, but it is a definite possibility. I was more interested that I was able to recognize some instances in my life that I really did feel like I had accomplished something and enjoyed it. Through this experience I have allowed myself to trust myself to get where I need to go and be who I need to be … it just takes some love and passion!
I had some interesting experiences today. While giving work to my partner I really felt the flow of the work and was able to actually feel some things and experienced the true experience of the work. I really let go and let it take control of the situation and allowed myself to be the key to transportation of such energy. One of the coolest experiences was when I was working on my partners spine. Each time we would be in a door and slide towards their spine and connect with the vertebrae I would receive chills down my spine, a sign of a frequency change in your body. I could have expected this every once in a while as I worked on a “patient” but this happened every 30 times I touched the spine. This was not the ending of this experience either. While also working on the spine I could feel, and there fore anticipate my partner having her own changes of frequency. There were numerous times that as I came into a doorway, I felt it really “heat up” and my partner would have a physical reaction to the intensity of energy that I felt. It was really fulfilling to know that I could have that effect on someone. Even though it was not me putting the energy into the person I could feel it! It was as if we were one, and we were in another dimension together.
There is such an importance in this life that we all have to really breathe in every experience we have. By breathing we are allowing ourselves to feel the world and everything that is happening to us. Taking your emotions you have in a situation and accepting them allows us to be true to ourselves.
It was brought up at dinner today on lifestyles that people choose and how they die. Some people feel that there is no point in eating healthy because they would not be happy if they did not eat the foods they enjoy so much. They take quality of life over quantity, but it is a double sided argument. How do you now that is the best you can live if you know your body is not in as good of shape, not speaking athletic shape, as possible? Others strive for a perfect diet and workout regimen in hope for a longer life and better quality from being healthy. The fact of the matter is that you will live your life the way you want to live it and really search in yourself and find what makes YOU and you alone happy! This really got me to thinking about career choice and what I want to do for the rest of my life. I really want to find something, if I have not already found it, that I love doing. It is not worth being miserable and having to fight through life when if I can do something that is true to myself I can just BE! When I look back on my life I want to be able to say, “there is nothing in my life that I would have changed … I love what I did, I love who I am, I love who I am with and I love how I got here!”
When I was given my treatment for the day I really tried to focus in on my intention and feel it in my body. I more specifically asked spirit to let my heart know what it wants/needs. As I was on the table random things started popping into my head, except they were not so random. Camp Avanti was one of the visions and the other was all the children I have worked with through IDS, a therapy program where I worked as a line therapist. These instances were points in my life where I found joy and fulfillment in my life. I am not taking this as a case where that is what I need to do, work with children, but it is a definite possibility. I was more interested that I was able to recognize some instances in my life that I really did feel like I had accomplished something and enjoyed it. Through this experience I have allowed myself to trust myself to get where I need to go and be who I need to be … it just takes some love and passion!
Day 9 - The Power of a Wave
My intention was made to forget my ego and open up to places full of energy and expression. I was not fully successful in accomplishing my intention but sometimes it is just not there and there is internal work to be done that does not require such expressions. I did use my voice a lot more today and toned more frequently. At times it is really helpful and at others it is just a distraction. While laying on the table for my treatment, there was a lot of commotion going on in the room. Lots of yelling, crying, screaming and even some throwing up! It was quite hard for me to be able to relax with all this going on. I am not one that loves loud places. A quaint quite place suits me well!
Today’s focus was on the lower body, specifically the legs. We were introduced to using waves as a source of energy while giving a treatment. Due to the last experience with spirals and not feeling to well while giving the treatment because of the forcefulness to do more spinning and letting the spirals take hold of your body, apprehension towards this treatment was present in everyone. Arna told everyone that we really had to let the energy take our bodies in the wave and it was always to express more! There were a total of 24 waves with a few spirals in the mix. Thank god I did not have to treat first for I was way to tired to deal with all of that.
During my morning treatment a few interesting sensations went over my body. The first was an energy shift that I was not expecting. All of a sudden, when I started to dose off, what felt like a softball sized rock crashing into my middle back. It produced a ripple effect across my body and I could feel every ripple running through my body as if I had been transformed into a pond. The second sensation occurred at the very end of my session when I was done. For the whole session we had to lye on our stomachs and when I turned over on my side my whole body felt like it was a bag of sand. Comparable to having a weighted blanket lying across your body. A slight tingling sensation was felt throughout my whole being and that was when I knew there had been a frequency change.
Throughout that session I believe I was the only one that did not get emotional. I don’t know why this is. Perhaps I have been cured and already faced everything I needed to face over this course. Maybe I just couldn’t get out of my ego state of mind again. I think one of the factors was the noise level and me not being able to be stress-less.
As I prepared to give a treatment I was a little nervous about how emotional everyone in the morning session got while giving the treatments. This ended up not being the case for me. The point in the treatment when people lost it was when we had to experience the energy of the 24 waves. The first wave started out as a big wave and they progressively got bigger and bigger. I don’t know what it was about my experience but it did not relate to others. Many times the wave would come to me and I would move with it. It might through me around here and there but overall there was no negativity about the waves and it was a pleasurable experience. Sometimes the waves would through me around a little, sometimes they would carry me around like I was someone important. I was encapsulated in a bubble and just floated in one. Another went into my heart leaving all the energy there and flushed out the other side. There was a gigantic one that just stood there, turned into ice but had a warm sensation to touch. Another took me in, laid me to rest and re-birthed me. With all these actions it was hard to really take in the whole experience and probably has to be explained in person to get a full understanding of what went on otherwise I would have to write 2-3 pages for this entry. Not that 2-3 pages would make all that big of a difference in the grand scheme of things.
Something happened to me today that shows the intention and idea behind a lot of this work. I was sitting at the dinner table talking with some of my peers about random things and one of the three cats present in the house decided to jump up on my lap. Before he even touched me I knew something was happening and before I knew it I had something in my lap. I was startled and scared shitless until I realized it was the cat. Immediately after that happened … told me to keep that feeling of being scared in my mind and take some deep breathes for if I don’t I will bottle up that fear and it will be stored in my body, probably my lower back. This is the stuff that gets released in these sessions. Emotions that we have to certain triggers in our life that we hold onto instead of face and accept. The feeling I got from taking all of the experience in and breathing was amazing! If only we all had someone there to remind us to just breathe when things like this happen.
Today’s focus was on the lower body, specifically the legs. We were introduced to using waves as a source of energy while giving a treatment. Due to the last experience with spirals and not feeling to well while giving the treatment because of the forcefulness to do more spinning and letting the spirals take hold of your body, apprehension towards this treatment was present in everyone. Arna told everyone that we really had to let the energy take our bodies in the wave and it was always to express more! There were a total of 24 waves with a few spirals in the mix. Thank god I did not have to treat first for I was way to tired to deal with all of that.
During my morning treatment a few interesting sensations went over my body. The first was an energy shift that I was not expecting. All of a sudden, when I started to dose off, what felt like a softball sized rock crashing into my middle back. It produced a ripple effect across my body and I could feel every ripple running through my body as if I had been transformed into a pond. The second sensation occurred at the very end of my session when I was done. For the whole session we had to lye on our stomachs and when I turned over on my side my whole body felt like it was a bag of sand. Comparable to having a weighted blanket lying across your body. A slight tingling sensation was felt throughout my whole being and that was when I knew there had been a frequency change.
Throughout that session I believe I was the only one that did not get emotional. I don’t know why this is. Perhaps I have been cured and already faced everything I needed to face over this course. Maybe I just couldn’t get out of my ego state of mind again. I think one of the factors was the noise level and me not being able to be stress-less.
As I prepared to give a treatment I was a little nervous about how emotional everyone in the morning session got while giving the treatments. This ended up not being the case for me. The point in the treatment when people lost it was when we had to experience the energy of the 24 waves. The first wave started out as a big wave and they progressively got bigger and bigger. I don’t know what it was about my experience but it did not relate to others. Many times the wave would come to me and I would move with it. It might through me around here and there but overall there was no negativity about the waves and it was a pleasurable experience. Sometimes the waves would through me around a little, sometimes they would carry me around like I was someone important. I was encapsulated in a bubble and just floated in one. Another went into my heart leaving all the energy there and flushed out the other side. There was a gigantic one that just stood there, turned into ice but had a warm sensation to touch. Another took me in, laid me to rest and re-birthed me. With all these actions it was hard to really take in the whole experience and probably has to be explained in person to get a full understanding of what went on otherwise I would have to write 2-3 pages for this entry. Not that 2-3 pages would make all that big of a difference in the grand scheme of things.
Something happened to me today that shows the intention and idea behind a lot of this work. I was sitting at the dinner table talking with some of my peers about random things and one of the three cats present in the house decided to jump up on my lap. Before he even touched me I knew something was happening and before I knew it I had something in my lap. I was startled and scared shitless until I realized it was the cat. Immediately after that happened … told me to keep that feeling of being scared in my mind and take some deep breathes for if I don’t I will bottle up that fear and it will be stored in my body, probably my lower back. This is the stuff that gets released in these sessions. Emotions that we have to certain triggers in our life that we hold onto instead of face and accept. The feeling I got from taking all of the experience in and breathing was amazing! If only we all had someone there to remind us to just breathe when things like this happen.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Day 8 - Facing My Ego
My intention was set as: to let the day take me where I needed to go. This was in relation to expressing what I was feeling and facing the emotions I had in previous sessions of anger and frustration. I made this intention because we have been advised that we store a lot of that kind of stuff in our back and from here on out the work we have done is going to be on the back. I am planning on writing down all my aggressions on a piece of paper so that if I need to take it out on something I can put that piece of paper on a pillow and let it have it! The intention was changed to:
A discussion took place in the early morning that was quite an epiphany and lead to my understanding of some of the difficulties I have been having within the past couple of days. During circle our group discussed being “disconnected” from the work we are doing and not experiencing what is happening on the table by being in and out of one’s ego. The importance that I have been putting on remembering every little detail and really having something to write about has prevented me from fully experiencing everything. I have found that due to all this writing I have been doing about my experiences that I have started to stay in the state of a writer while in the sessions. This state is the state of the ego and has kept me from really opening up to myself and has diminished my experience in quality and quantity. For this reason many of my following entries may not contain as much detail for they will be on the overall experience of each day versus individual sections of the day and what they all meant for me. I will still try to be thorough in what I talk about, and include as much valuable and expressive experiences as possible, but some topics may be lacking. After this discussion my new intention became: not to be the writer.
The morning session was difficult for me. I worked on someone in the group who I have a past relationship (friendship) with. In the past, she has been a guide in many spiritual quests. While working on her I was engulfed by the need to give her a superior treatment, a treatment that surpassed the rest. I think this intention hindered my ability to feel the energy present and channel it to where it needed to be. The pace was slow and exhausting. For the first week, I was able to activate all points on the body and initiate any energy movements necessary, but in this session I could not initiate a spiral (kind of energy movement). When I asked for input on the situation, Arna kind of chuckled and said that it is not something that you can do, it just has to happen. Part of the problem was that I was not physically initiating the movement. In the past I had always just been able to think about it and it would really take me, but not in this case. I struggled through this session, finally ending well after everyone else. This fact did not really bother me but I was worried that I was doing something wrong and the possible effects it could have on the rest of my experiences.
Lunch came immediately after I finished my treatment, around 1:30. The “patients” were delayed in their presence at the table and one-by-one they came up stairs. When my partner made her way up she was not her normal self. She seemed drained and still in a integration stage from the treatment. She grabbed something to eat quick and went back downstairs for further integration. An hour later, I went down stairs for my session of treatment. Of course, my partner was still on the table sleeping it off. When she woke she seemed groggy and still not herself. I became very worried about her and could not get that out of my mind.
When my treatment started I was worried for two reasons. The first: I may have done this to her and she hates me for it. Second: she was going to do something she wasn’t supposed to and it was going to affect me some how. This prevented me from really moving out of my ego state and feeling what was going on in my own body. I found myself at numerous times thinking about the work that my partner was doing instead of just letting it happen. This went on for a majority of the session until there was an all of a sudden energy change from her and I was able to relax. The rest of the treatment went well. It has been a common occurrence for me to not really feel the full effects of the treatment until after the work has been completing and I am integrating. As I lay on the table in peace the treatment seems to take over my body and hit me all at once. I then fall asleep for a short while and wake up, sometimes in time for lunch/dinner. As I woke and felt my body a little I noticed that my lower back that has been causing me troubles had subsided and was really lose and relaxed, at least compared to what it used to be.
I have found that I don’t do well and tend to fall into the ego state when the person working on me is given directions from Arna about the next step. I automatically set my focus to what she is saying and really need to work on getting out of this habit and stay in my heart. An new intention for the future was made: to get out of the ego state and really allow myself to feel.
A discussion took place in the early morning that was quite an epiphany and lead to my understanding of some of the difficulties I have been having within the past couple of days. During circle our group discussed being “disconnected” from the work we are doing and not experiencing what is happening on the table by being in and out of one’s ego. The importance that I have been putting on remembering every little detail and really having something to write about has prevented me from fully experiencing everything. I have found that due to all this writing I have been doing about my experiences that I have started to stay in the state of a writer while in the sessions. This state is the state of the ego and has kept me from really opening up to myself and has diminished my experience in quality and quantity. For this reason many of my following entries may not contain as much detail for they will be on the overall experience of each day versus individual sections of the day and what they all meant for me. I will still try to be thorough in what I talk about, and include as much valuable and expressive experiences as possible, but some topics may be lacking. After this discussion my new intention became: not to be the writer.
The morning session was difficult for me. I worked on someone in the group who I have a past relationship (friendship) with. In the past, she has been a guide in many spiritual quests. While working on her I was engulfed by the need to give her a superior treatment, a treatment that surpassed the rest. I think this intention hindered my ability to feel the energy present and channel it to where it needed to be. The pace was slow and exhausting. For the first week, I was able to activate all points on the body and initiate any energy movements necessary, but in this session I could not initiate a spiral (kind of energy movement). When I asked for input on the situation, Arna kind of chuckled and said that it is not something that you can do, it just has to happen. Part of the problem was that I was not physically initiating the movement. In the past I had always just been able to think about it and it would really take me, but not in this case. I struggled through this session, finally ending well after everyone else. This fact did not really bother me but I was worried that I was doing something wrong and the possible effects it could have on the rest of my experiences.
Lunch came immediately after I finished my treatment, around 1:30. The “patients” were delayed in their presence at the table and one-by-one they came up stairs. When my partner made her way up she was not her normal self. She seemed drained and still in a integration stage from the treatment. She grabbed something to eat quick and went back downstairs for further integration. An hour later, I went down stairs for my session of treatment. Of course, my partner was still on the table sleeping it off. When she woke she seemed groggy and still not herself. I became very worried about her and could not get that out of my mind.
When my treatment started I was worried for two reasons. The first: I may have done this to her and she hates me for it. Second: she was going to do something she wasn’t supposed to and it was going to affect me some how. This prevented me from really moving out of my ego state and feeling what was going on in my own body. I found myself at numerous times thinking about the work that my partner was doing instead of just letting it happen. This went on for a majority of the session until there was an all of a sudden energy change from her and I was able to relax. The rest of the treatment went well. It has been a common occurrence for me to not really feel the full effects of the treatment until after the work has been completing and I am integrating. As I lay on the table in peace the treatment seems to take over my body and hit me all at once. I then fall asleep for a short while and wake up, sometimes in time for lunch/dinner. As I woke and felt my body a little I noticed that my lower back that has been causing me troubles had subsided and was really lose and relaxed, at least compared to what it used to be.
I have found that I don’t do well and tend to fall into the ego state when the person working on me is given directions from Arna about the next step. I automatically set my focus to what she is saying and really need to work on getting out of this habit and stay in my heart. An new intention for the future was made: to get out of the ego state and really allow myself to feel.
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