Friday, February 22, 2008

Closing One Door Opens Another

On February 17th 2008 I took part on a journey that could ultimately change my life forever. I attended a Frequencies of Brilliance course for 12 days with the goal to find my inner meaning in this life and who I am supposed to be; so that I may love and cherish, myself, others, and this world. Ultimately, I want to find and live the life I am meant to live. This course promises, spirit and self-willing, that I can open up to my inner self and learn to live through my heart.

The following um-so entries are a day-by-day journal of my experience. Some days are light and some are dark. This really gets into the nitty-gritty of what it is like to take part in this seminar from my point of view. I hold nothing back and if you at any point you feel that you do not want to know such things about myself then stop reading and skip to the summation that I will write at the end of the two week session.

Note: everything in these entries is my opinion of my experience throughout this process. By no means is everything that I experienced as truth the truth of the other members of the group or of other courses. I am not able to talk about other people’s experiences or what happened to them so some issues may not contain enough information for you to actually understand them fully. I apologize for any confusion that may happen while reading.

To understand the following experiences I had you will need to understand what Amanae and Frequencies of Brilliance (FOB) are. Below are descriptions of both given by the people who know it best, the practitioners. The following website gives a great SHORT description of the specific workshop that I am taking place in.
http://www.arna-k-leshem.com/Stage1.html
Anotherwebsite http://www.frequenciesofbrilliance.com/welcome.htm


Amanae
Is a journey of self-healing and discover that begins in your heart. It is a holistic technique that is done on a massage table. Every session begins with opening the heart, and is usually an hour long

In the course of our lives, we go through different things that bring up emotions and reactions, which for various reasons, we are often unable to feel or address in the moment. Instead, we keep these inside, and they get stored in the deep tissue in our bodies, where they can lead to physical discomfort, chronic disease, emotional and/or mental problems, destructive patterns, unhappiness in our lives, or a feeling of being stuck and not being able to change…

In Amanae we use the breath to come into our bodies and feel what is held in them. This means that client’s role during the session is to be present in their body by breathing into the areas that are being accessed with the practitioner’s help. The practitioner utilized his/her hands, breath, voices and energy to meet the client in the area of the body that is being worked on, and open it, so that whatever is held there can come up, be felt, expressed and released. It is only once we have felt and integrated (with our breath) what is held in our bodies that we can start letting go and discover the truth about our selves and our lives.

Amanae is a process that requires a commitment to your self. But in it, are many gifts for you to find such as: self-healing, self-discovery, self-love, Freedom, empowerment, joy and more


Frequencies of Brilliance
Frequencies of Brilliance is an energy work that connects with the “purest” part of your SELF. This could also be described as your “Divine Aspect” – it is the part of you that knows the Devine, that which knows no limitation.

Many of us experience a “lack of meaning: at some point in our lives. However complete our lives seem many of use have a feeling that something is not quite right. There may be a belief that an aspect of happiness or joy is just beyond our grasp. Frequencies of Brilliance work opens “energetic doorways’ on the body. Through the openings you being to recognize and move from your truth and fullness to create the life you came here to create. I n that creation is the happiness and joy that was thought to be beyond your grasp. The work brings balance and inner wisdom to your life, which is health enhancing.

Frequencies of Brilliance brings the potential for emotional, physical and spiritual healing as we take the steps to let go of all that has been holding us in place. Through opening the doorways, information is brought into the physical cells of the body, this information is the transferred to the DNA. Since the work accesses the divine blueprint for life at the soul level, information is available for regenerating cells and structure as well as for spiritual awakening.

Due to my overwhelming feeling of being lost and needing to grab hold of something solid I did not want to take place in this seminar. I agreed to do it partially because my mom seemed to really want this for me and I trust her. I wanted to take part in the workshop before I really found out what it was all about and how serious it was. Those thoughts began on my vacation to Hawaii the previous week. On the airplane my mom wanted to talk to me about what to expect and when I realized that I was going to be “stranded” at this house in southern Minneapolis for a week I started feeling regret for saying yes to it. It didn’t help that I was going to have to go directly from the airport on my way back to Hawaii to the house to start the first session and that I only packed Hawaii clothes. I also need my friends and I want to see them. They are the part of me that makes me whole. It is the feeling of being separated from the world that can have positive and negative effects.

Time in Limbo


Two days after my car was stolen I received a call from the St. Paul police department telling me that my car had been stripped and that it was at the St. Paul impound. This was a relief for me as well as a pain in the ass because how the hell can I be expected to get over to St. Paul when my car has been stolen! This feeling became really apparent when my dad dropped me off at the impound and they had already started to charge a fee for towing the car and holding it. I would have thought that we would at least be granted a grace period. It ended up not being a big deal because when I went to look at the car there was nothing left that I would want… besides my $50 ironman triathlon watch and some of the speakers in the car. I don’t know why they didn’t take the tweeters or the 5” rounds because they were pretty nice! I was unable to get out the 4 by 9s in the back for some reason or another and they also left the taillights and the seats. That is at least another $150 that they could have gotten from the car by selling them on ebay. I took what I could from the car even though we weren’t supposed to (I am sure that they were fine with personal items but all else attached to the car I think we were supposed to leave). I ended up leaving the car at the impound for it to be sold at a local auction or compressed into a flat sheet of metal and plastic!

From here I started spending a LOT of time on the internet. Approximately 10 hours a day researching jobs, cars and MCAT. This could not have been healthy for me!

There is not a lot else that happened to me between then and my trip to Hawaii so I won’t talk much about that time period besides that I have had a few interviews with some head hunter corporations which have not lead to anything besides them telling me to get in contact with them after I come back from Hawaii.

I left for Hawaii on February 9th and spent a week there with my family. The weather was not as warm as I had hoped at times due to the overcast conditions that we experienced sometimes when on the beach but when the sun was out it was glorious! We went hiking in the jungle, swam under a natural 150’ waterfall, zip lined near the mountains (jungle area), went on a whale watching tour where we saw the Na Pali coast, whales and dolphins. I saw hundreds of whales, tons of breaches and overall it was a very relaxing time. With all the time spent outside in the sun and on the beach I was very surprised that I did not get burnt!

While in Hawaii I had a few phone calls from different companies inquiring about job positions and I am pretty sure that if all else fails I will be able to move to CO and become a swimming/diving/tennis instructor along with lifeguard at Cherry Hills! This of course would interfere with my bike trip so I still have some things to think about.