This is a post that I wrote quite a while back but never finished it. I am posting it now in hopes that I do not lose sight of the things that have happened to me thus far. There were many things that I wanted to share but never got around to it. Those things include
My experience exploring NYC with Bryon McDonald for the first time
My ultimate experiences in MA
My change of goals
etc.
I don't know if I will ever write about these subjects but I feel that it will be good to at least mention them now so that when I look back I can remember what was important to me during this time frame.
“It is now September 28th, the day before my 24th birthday. The inevitable day that is the middle ground to becoming un-young. It has been quite some time since my last blog. Now that I have had over 6 months off of writing, I hope that I can filter out the unimportant details, or the ones I have forgotten, and focus on the things that have really made an impact on me so far.
As I re-read my posts of the past I recognize many grammatical errors that I want to change. I would typically go back and change these but I have come to the conclusion that these imperfections of grammatical significance are not something to be erased from the past. These mistakes defined “me” in that moment. I therefore have accepted these mistakes and have decided to leave them unaltered. To catch you up to present date, this entry will be about the impact that Frequencies has had on my life.
When I left off writing, I was talking about my experiences while traveling to a familiar place; home. The only difference was that I was experiencing life through a different set of eyes. This was a time in my life where I truly felt like things made sense and it was becoming clear who I was with every passing moment. Unfortunately, not everyone was accepting the “new me”. I found that many people were impervious to change and would not accept it in the least. This was very evident in the way that a couple close friends were treating me. I can’t blame them for not treating me different as if I had not experienced what I did I doubt that I would really understand how 2 weeks away could change someone so much. I was very upset though, and these circumstances really made me think about how blind some people are in their ego state of mind. The impact that the ego has on everyone has become dramatically obvious. It seems a common trend that we let this ‘fad’ take over our lives.
I have really learned to appreciate the little things in life. One of them is the company of any other person. Since I moved to this new area (Western Mass) with no friends at all, it has been hard to get out and make friends. At first I was very lonely but this taught me that when there are people around me to be grateful for their presence in my life.
Once I found an ultimate team (funny story but way to long to type) friendships quickly formed but during the time of limbo (between groups of friends) I really connected up with some of my close friends back home and it made me realize who in my life is very important to me. (You all know who you are!)
To put everything into organizational thought is very difficult at this moment because I am not entirely sure of everything that I have perceived. I don't know how it all ties together or the meaning behind each occurrence. All I can do is put it on paper and hope that someday, when I look back on it, I can recognize a pattern that makes sense. A pattern that has defined my character and symbolizes ‘me’.
I am tired of sitting around waiting for things to happen. This is going to stop! From now on I am going make my own luck!“
