I was unable to sleep well last night and I cannot pinpoint the exact reason. Maybe it has to do with the threat of the real world fast approaching and all that I have to do when I get home, or the anxiety that I did not get as much out of this program as I could have. This was a silly thought because I got out of it exactly what I needed to get out of it. It is comparable to the message that McGagger tried to get across in one of his songs, “you can’t always get what you want … you get what you need.”
I woke up feeling exhausted and with only 20 min to get ready. I jumped in the shower quick, rand downstairs and sat in the circle with nothing in my stomach. The intention was made to be myself in everything that I do.
Today was very structured and seemed almost rushed. We only had so much time before the program would be done and according to the leaders we had a lot to accomplish. We did some brain work on our partners and it was quite the experience. While working on my partner, my hands were guided as if I was playing a well known song on the guitar. Every movement was effortless and ‘meant to be’. Spirit was really guiding during this period and I sometimes opened my eyes to see exactly where my fingers were so that I was not going to poke my partners eyes out. Every time I checked my hands I wanted to chuckle because they were right where they were supposed to be.
While getting worked on, about half way through the treatment, there was a point when two electrodes at the points of my temples shot what seemed to be a lightning bolt of energy towards the middle of my brain. I started to think, “oh shit, I hope I did not just erase my brain. Wait… I am thinking, ok, I’m good!” From this time out I started to dream a little bit. Then while I was starting to wake up, I was up watching a cartoon playing on what seemed to be a tv screen, in my head. The cartoon was clear as a bell and the birds in the cartoon did exactly what I told them to do. Cartoons are something that I rarely watch and it was fun to play around with them in my head. When I opened my eyes I was surprised to find that I was not watching tv. They say that brain work activates new parts of your brain to start functioning. This was an example of exactly that a new part of my brain being activated. It was fun to see more of a creative side come out of me.
As the workshop came to a close we had one final lunch and then it was farewell! It was fun to sit down and not have to think about what we were going to be doing next, although the stress of the real world was more evident. As my father came to pick me up I found that I really was going to miss these new people in my life. Even though I did not really get to know them very well, there was a deep connection to most! It was interesting to see how much support and love everyone possessed for one another! We shared an experience that not many have. An uplifting, enlightening journey towards nirvana!
As we drove home I started to get a headache from the motion of the car. The trek home was like a journey to a familiar land, full of new perceptions.
I woke up feeling exhausted and with only 20 min to get ready. I jumped in the shower quick, rand downstairs and sat in the circle with nothing in my stomach. The intention was made to be myself in everything that I do.
Today was very structured and seemed almost rushed. We only had so much time before the program would be done and according to the leaders we had a lot to accomplish. We did some brain work on our partners and it was quite the experience. While working on my partner, my hands were guided as if I was playing a well known song on the guitar. Every movement was effortless and ‘meant to be’. Spirit was really guiding during this period and I sometimes opened my eyes to see exactly where my fingers were so that I was not going to poke my partners eyes out. Every time I checked my hands I wanted to chuckle because they were right where they were supposed to be.
While getting worked on, about half way through the treatment, there was a point when two electrodes at the points of my temples shot what seemed to be a lightning bolt of energy towards the middle of my brain. I started to think, “oh shit, I hope I did not just erase my brain. Wait… I am thinking, ok, I’m good!” From this time out I started to dream a little bit. Then while I was starting to wake up, I was up watching a cartoon playing on what seemed to be a tv screen, in my head. The cartoon was clear as a bell and the birds in the cartoon did exactly what I told them to do. Cartoons are something that I rarely watch and it was fun to play around with them in my head. When I opened my eyes I was surprised to find that I was not watching tv. They say that brain work activates new parts of your brain to start functioning. This was an example of exactly that a new part of my brain being activated. It was fun to see more of a creative side come out of me.
As the workshop came to a close we had one final lunch and then it was farewell! It was fun to sit down and not have to think about what we were going to be doing next, although the stress of the real world was more evident. As my father came to pick me up I found that I really was going to miss these new people in my life. Even though I did not really get to know them very well, there was a deep connection to most! It was interesting to see how much support and love everyone possessed for one another! We shared an experience that not many have. An uplifting, enlightening journey towards nirvana!
As we drove home I started to get a headache from the motion of the car. The trek home was like a journey to a familiar land, full of new perceptions.
